Oh How I Love Alabama Football

There is nothing like Fall at The University of Alabama. I absolutely LOVE my school and everything about it. I have some of the most AMAZING friends that I have met along the way...I could not be more blessed. This weekend it was great to relax and spend our last HOMECOMING at UA together with some of us actually still being students. As time continues to fly by and graduation gets closer and closer, I cherish these little moments more and more. Next year at this time we will all hope that we can make it back and tailgate together as UA Alumni!!!!!!

I'm Glad I'm Not From Gadsden

Butler Alabama....HOME SWEET HOME



I am so thankful for the town that I was raised in! This past weekend Amy, Paige, and I went home to Butlerfest. It was so much fun and as always wonderful to see everyone. I LOVE that when I bring people home they are always treated just like they are part of the family by everyone in Butler. Friday night we went to the Patrician vs South Choctaw game.....of course my SAINTS won!!! They have some serious talent on that team. Saturday we stayed at Bama Crawfish for pretty much the entire day so we could eat and watch the games! BAMA won so now I finally feel like I can breathe. I have been worried sick over this Ole Miss game since before the season started.....ROLL TIDE ROLL!!! With all this said....Thank Goodness Im not from Gadsden!!!

God is Always Teaching Us A Lesson....We Just Have To Listen

As the days go by I feel like time keeps moving faster and faster. I have been doing non-stop school work for the past few weeks. It seems like there are not enough hours in the day to finish all that I need to do. I know that in May it will all be worth it but right now its KILLER. On top of school work my best friend since 1st grade is getting married this weekend. I am so excited for her and can't wait to be a part of this special time in her life. Once the wedding is over I am going to take a weekend to head back to Nashville to help my boss out. I am looking so forward to it because of so many reasons. I miss my boss, miss Nashville, can't wait to get my massage, see my TITANS, and most of all I need a weekend away. Thank goodness Fall Break is only a week away!!!

Not only has school been a lot to deal with but I let the Blake go. It was hard, sad, and not something I wanted to do.....something I HAD to do. There are so many wonderful things about Blake. Just like all of us there are also several bad things about Blake. The bad things eventually started to out weigh the good so I had to do what no one wants to do and decided to just be friends. I want so badly for the things that bring Blake down to change. However until people realize that God is the only way those things will change and the decisions they personally make begin to change ...things are never going to get any better. I will always be here for Blake if he ever needs me and I will continue to pray for him and the issues that he has told me about. I can only hope that ONE day things will be different for him. So eight months later here we are......

I started my hours at Brewer Porch today for my special education class.....it is wonderful. It breaks my heart but at the same time I know that those children are so special and God loves them so much. It is an absolute BLESSING to be able to work in an autistic classroom. I hope that one day I can make a difference in the life of a child with disabilities. Mrs. Farrish my teacher has such a big heart and wants so badly to help these children. It makes me wonder sometimes when I am watching them why should a child have to suffer with the disabilities they are born with? I still don't have those answers however, I do know that God has a plan and a purpose for each and every person. Even if those children teach me to become more humble then they have served an amazing purpose and that is not at all the only reason God created them. I just hope that I am a person who can touch their lives in some way while I am there doing my time just like I KNOW they will touch me!

Time for bed but I wanted to do a little catch up from the past few days. Oh yes ROLL TIDE

What If Love Was Enough

I will go ahead and start off with all the great things that have been going on in my life. This past weekend Amy, Jeanna, and I took Lou to Memphis for her Bachlorette Party! We went to Graceland and Beale St...it was so much fun. Lindsey has been a huge fan of Elvis since we were little so her life has been made complete now that she has Matt and seen Graceland!



Alabama pulled out an amazing Victory against North Texas this weekend. Even though I was not there I made sure everyone in Memphis knew that I was supporting BAMA!! I screamed ROLL TIDE more in Memphis than I probably ever have in Tuscaloosa haha! I am looking forward to Arkansas this weekend. ROLL TIDE

I saw the love of my life Wesley Britt today .....AMAZING!

So now to the current moments in my life!

Today was HORRIBLE....and when I say HORRIBLE I mean it. First of all I just wanted to sleep in today considering my class was canceled and I was dead tired from Memphis. Well I guess 9:30am was a little bit of sleeping in but not what I was going for. Blake called and I could not go back to sleep...I was so mad but I moved on with life. Paige and I hung out ate City Cafe(where I saw Wesley Britt) and went shopping. I then had to go to work in the rain....no fun. Before arriving at work Blake called......this time since I was alert I remembered all the things that happened last week and I decided to address them. There was not enough time on my ride to work to even deal with it all so I called him back once everyone got settled.

The conversation went from bad to good to really really bad. All I have ever wanted is someone to treat me right, be honest, love me for me, and someone who actually cares about my feelings. I don't think that is too much to ask of anyone because they wont even have to ask it from me...it will just be naturally there.

As I have said before Blake and I are nothing official but it is something more than a friendship. With that being said I veiw it as if something is going to happen in the future between us. I treat my life as if he were the only one in it(guy wise). I respect him and how he feels about cheaters considering everything he has been through. I never ever would want him to doubt how I feel for him or give him any doubt about my faithfulness to him. I also would hope that, that is how he handles himself when it comes to me. Even if we are not anything official I would hope that I would be important enough to him that if situations were to arise he would have me in the back of his mind.

More than all of that listed above honesty is HUGE with me. I don't want you lying to me. Lying also includes leaving out minor details...at least in my opinion. If I am completely open and honest with you I expect the same. I want honesty in every area...from what happened last night, to your birthday, to friends, to EVERYTHING. I am an open book with you so have the same respect for me.

I have a HUGE heart and I can deal with a lot. I forgive and forget every single time I am hurt. I sometimes feel like I am the only one that cares in situations and that is not a fun feeling. Since I do have a big heart I a lot of times get trampled on.

With everything said tonight I feel as if my heart has been trampled on today. I respect honesty but it still hurts. Being honest does not change the action, it does not change the hurt, and it does not change the way I feel about a person even after the action has taken place. The last is the hardest to deal with. It hurts so bad to know someone you care about treats you wrong but yet you cant make the (care for them part) go away.

After a million tears shed this afternoon, I have made the decision that is best for me. I will be sad for a while but maybe things will be put into perspective. Sometimes all we need is to see that what we lose is the best thing that could have ever happened to us.

What if Love Was Enough?

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