As the days go by I feel like time keeps moving faster and faster. I have been doing non-stop school work for the past few weeks. It seems like there are not enough hours in the day to finish all that I need to do. I know that in May it will all be worth it but right now its KILLER. On top of school work my best friend since 1st grade is getting married this weekend. I am so excited for her and can't wait to be a part of this special time in her life. Once the wedding is over I am going to take a weekend to head back to Nashville to help my boss out. I am looking so forward to it because of so many reasons. I miss my boss, miss Nashville, can't wait to get my massage, see my TITANS, and most of all I need a weekend away. Thank goodness Fall Break is only a week away!!!
Not only has school been a lot to deal with but I let the Blake go. It was hard, sad, and not something I wanted to do.....something I HAD to do. There are so many wonderful things about Blake. Just like all of us there are also several bad things about Blake. The bad things eventually started to out weigh the good so I had to do what no one wants to do and decided to just be friends. I want so badly for the things that bring Blake down to change. However until people realize that God is the only way those things will change and the decisions they personally make begin to change ...things are never going to get any better. I will always be here for Blake if he ever needs me and I will continue to pray for him and the issues that he has told me about. I can only hope that ONE day things will be different for him. So eight months later here we are......
I started my hours at Brewer Porch today for my special education class.....it is wonderful. It breaks my heart but at the same time I know that those children are so special and God loves them so much. It is an absolute BLESSING to be able to work in an autistic classroom. I hope that one day I can make a difference in the life of a child with disabilities. Mrs. Farrish my teacher has such a big heart and wants so badly to help these children. It makes me wonder sometimes when I am watching them why should a child have to suffer with the disabilities they are born with? I still don't have those answers however, I do know that God has a plan and a purpose for each and every person. Even if those children teach me to become more humble then they have served an amazing purpose and that is not at all the only reason God created them. I just hope that I am a person who can touch their lives in some way while I am there doing my time just like I KNOW they will touch me!
Time for bed but I wanted to do a little catch up from the past few days. Oh yes ROLL TIDE