Jan 22, 2012

It's All New To Me

I have updated many of you through this blog that there has been a new addition to my life. I have a sweet friend named Ryan who is working pretty hard to become more than just a friend. It is so crazy to me that at 26 years old I am scared half to death over all of this. I have dated before but as I said in a previous post I have never met anyone who treats me how my daddy would approve of. Ryan is a first.....so In a way I feel like this is all new territory to me.

I have such mixed emotions on so many different areas. It's hard to get used to not always having someone agree with you. When you are single that is not a problem!!! Having someone tell you like it is, is not always an easy pill to swallow. I find myself wondering so many times am I just super sensitive, is he correct, or should I start fussing now? Then there come times when I think I completely over react and can't understand where all these horrible sides of me are coming from.

Needless to say I think I think WAY to much!!

I am hoping that as time goes on things become way more clear to me. I hope I learn how to take comments, constructive criticism, and just understand what Godly relationships are all about. I know that there are going to be times where people make you extremely happy, depression level upset, and sometimes make you feel nothing at all. I just hope through all the emotions that I get it right sooner or later!! So far I don't have the best track record.....it can only go up from the past!

I guess I just needed to vent a little on all of my confusion. I will be praying hard that the Lord give me guidance in all the areas that I need it (thats a lot of areas) !

I am looking forward to this week!! I have Housing Fair for work, preparing for Ladies of The Houndstooth meeting next week, and Friday is PAY DAY FRIDAY!! Whoo Hoooo!

1 comment:

  1. You do think way too much... GO FOR THE GOLD! Stop panicking and just dive right in... yes, there is a possibility of getting hurt -- but you'll never know just how AMAZING (& that you won't get hurt) it could be until you both give it 100% :) Love you sweet friend!